dear friends, readers, listeners.
i don’t think it’s half as hard to admit this kind of stuff now as it may have been in the past, but — i’ve felt real dry lately.
you know that feeling?
i guess by dry i mean worn out (when nothing’s really that hard) a little deflated, a little uninspired, a little off the pace. whatever “it” is, you’re just not feeling “it.”
my blog domain expired around my birthday, and i thought about renewing it then, but i haven’t even necessarily had anything to write about.
so, today i’m doing the best thing i know: writing about how there’s nothing to write about.
no, but really, i’ve come to this realization: i misuse my time. you might even say abuse it. in the past few weeks, i have been so unbelievably lazy — i’ve read maybe twenty pages of a book, haven’t written a lick, haven’t really spent a ton of time with other people.
what have i been doing? well, i’ve been running a lot (which is good for my body, specifically my breathing,) i’ve been watching a few movies (which is kinda nice, because i have this big, long list of films i’m trying to see) aaaaaand i’ve been playing obscene amounts of FIFA. like, OBSCENE. i won’t lie — it’s one of those things that borders on worrisome for me, because it’s such an easy go-to.
oh, and i’ve got the ball rolling to start seeing a counselor. i’ve always heard it’s probably good to see one whether you “need” it or not – and i’m realizing that it would very likely do me a lot of good. main reason being that there’s a whole heck of a lot that’s different in my life than was the case 365 days ago…
Dec. 10, 2016: had a dog.
Dec 10, 2017: rehomed the dog in December.
Dec 10, 2016: worked at A Cup of Common Wealth
Dec 10, 2017: work at Chase bank, Lucky’s Market, and Southland Christian Church.
Dec 10, 2016: had few close friends to hang out with consistently.
Dec 10, 2017: have a group of 3-5 guys i try to meet with regularly, and a mentee with whom i agreed to spend an hour every week.
Dec 10, 2016: single.
Dec 10, 2017: in a relationship.
Dec 10, 2016: lived in one house
Dec 10, 2017: live in another (can’t really give addresses, because internet.)
So – my life is good. Really, i’m very happy. but a lot has changed, and i feel like i’ve blogged about this a hundred times, and my phrase had always been something to the effect of, “more has changed in the last year (or two, or three, or four, or five, or now six) than did in the first 21.) and that’s still true. and i guess it’s tough when you’re the type who likes consistency, but i reckon that’s not really what your mid-to-late twenties are for, is it?