When graduation was upon me, I tired of being asked what my plan was. I didn’t know what I was going to do, and I felt the pressure of expectations, namely getting a job (as if I didn’t already have one) and instantly taking off in your career. So I decided that I was going to start answering that question in this fashion (and I probably did in a blog at one point or another:)
I’m just going to keep going in the same direction I’ve been going.
Now, to a point that was a good answer, because I was referring to where I was in ministry. I intended to keep teaching kid’s ministry, being on the worship team, etc.
But what I failed to take into consideration was the process of becoming a leader. See, I had good intentions, but I default to following, and when you’re called into leadership (which is the premise on which I was operating,) God has to readjust that default setting towards leading and not following. I’ve found that this happens by God transforming my thinking, and I mean several things by that.
First, I’m learning that sometimes leadership is go, go, go. Get ready for your life group. Do your homework. Prepare a sermon. Spend time in prayer and in the Bible. Go work at your job. Love your friends and family. Be a friend and family member. Work overtime sometimes. Be there when someone needs you – that is, don’t deny your service just because you’re lazy and want a little bit of “me” time.
Second, I’m learning that leadership is not a private matter. That is, leaders live their lives in the open, and as much as I want to go about my business quietly and silently, that’s not necessarily an option. What I mean by that is that – for one small example – if one wants to lead by example, then one must let the example be seen. A leader’s life must be shared and can’t be hoarded anymore.
Third, leadership is a constant direction. That is to say this:
I can’t be a wanderer anymore.
I can’t just drift through life without a plan any longer, I can’t pretend that my own life doesn’t have consequences for others anymore.
Leadership is a weight, but leadership is not a burden, and that burden demands direction and deliberate thinking.
That’s all for today.